Last week I found an article I had saved from college entitled “How Will You Measure You’re Life?”. I don’t remember what it was about, nor have I made it past the first page. Nonetheless, just reading the title caused me to take a deep look into my life.
How will I measure my life?
I wrote to myself a couple years back that “when its all over, I will be happy if I:
1) had a life full of adventures and stories
2) Changed the world somehow
3) Spread joy and make a positive impact on others”
I told myself that if I spent each and every moment of my life doing, or preparing to do 1 of the above 3 commitments, that I would be happy.
But I have not been succeeding (as much as I want to, at least). I usually get engulfed with one of the above, and forget about the other two. For example, I will work 12 hour days on my company, and completley forget about friends and family, or adventures and travels.
Or, I will start traveling, but then feel really guilty that I am not working on my company.
And that will build up, and I will get so taken over by emotions that I will forget to spread joy and make a positive impact on others.
There is never a balance.
And in the end, all of the uncertainty from my company, all of these emails, all of the things I have to do, have made me feel that life is really controlling me, and I am not controlling my life.
20 years later, what do I think is going to happen? That I am just going to turn work mode off and turn relax mode on? As Jason Fried said, whatever habits you have now are the one’s you are going to have 30 years from now. When you look at people who said that they would work hard and then completely stop working and enjoy life later, it usually turns out that they are still working so hard after they retire. Its impossible to just switch it off.
And so I decided to do something about it; I am going to actually measure my life.
I decided for the next 30 days I am going to put a number on every hour of my life – and associate it to what actions I took those hours. At every hour, my phone or watch will prompt me to be conscious of how I am feeling. My hypothesis is that I will become much more aware of how my actions will affect my goals and emotions. I figure, that if dieters lose much more weight simply by keeping a journal of the food they eat, that I can start cracking down on all of the things I want to accomplish more efficiently because I will be more aware.
Hopefully this will provide some good insights I can share with everyone else out there!
#5 – Blogging.